Saturday, November 21, 2009

I forget how it was like to dream...


lost all will to live, i'm just staying alive... just breathing, just getting through each day.
recently gone down to a low low, haven't reach this point in a very long time, kept crying, felt literally empty and the place where my heart is was just a huge gaping hole that doesn't hurt, just empty, just void, just a space where the heart used to be.
fear smells bitter, throat constricted, breathing laboured.
trying to reach above again, trying to hold on to reality.
i can smell my past, can be transported to another world, another time.
the lines are blurring, i forget reality. the real world is too loud.

but i'm so tired. i just want to sleep and escape. but the dreams are not helping.

will be fine. i hope.

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