I do not want to be hurt

I feel indignant. I don't think people should judge without fully understanding the situation or how the person feel.

Yes, granted, I feel like a horrible person but it could be my character and it could also be my condition. I don't think people who doesn't know me should form a skewed impression of me. If I'm horrible to your standard, then I'm sorry, that's me.

Stop hurting me by not understanding.

I'm not having fun.

I'm like this because of bipolar, because I can't control. When I'm well, I reflect and I learn from my behavior. It's a lonely journey and I need support. Just don't judge me or give up on me... because it a hard and empty feeling to be like this for 8 years.